"Don't Think Twice, It's All Right"

Ever lose something you never really had? Right now I feel I’m on both sides of that equation. There’s someone who never really had me. There’s someone I never really had. One ended terribly: one never really had a chance to begin.

This week I listen to all the goodbye songs. All the songs that should move me on. “Don’t think twice, it’s all right.” Reminders that we all get but a window to say the things we should’ve said and those words don’t usually work outside that window. Reminders also that it’s not fair to sit outside a shut window trying to read lips.

I need the one who never had me to let me go. And I’m having a hard time letting go of the one I never really had.

I like to leave my windows open. Even in the coldest stretch of winter, I need to know the cats will not spend the night in the rain except by choice. Once I open a window, I rarely shut it. Even for the cat who rarely sleeps at home.